I remember it well…
A month or so before my 3rd would arrive and the intense panic I was beginning to feel.
I felt so ‘in-over-my-head” as it was, I couldn’t imagine introducing another person, much less a newborn to the mix.
I was having dreams like: Opening the trunk of the car and finding him there, crying, wet and hungry – I had forgotten he was in the basket of groceries and just stuck him in the trunk!
I sat down at the computer and sent out an S.O.S. to an older, wiser woman. It went something like this:
Number 3 is on it’s way. STOP. How will I manage another? STOP. Will I be able to continue taking showers? STOP. How will I make dinner every night? STOP. Any advice to calm my panic would be much appreciated. STOP.
I remember the night we thought he was on his way. We were at a super bowl party. I looked at Dustin and calmly said, “It’s time”.
He gathered the kids and our stuff. We waved good-bye, they wished us luck. And then someone had the audacity to ask, “So, what’s the name going to be?”
The name? Yes, his name.
Had I really been in that much denial?? To not think of a name… and we were on our way to the hospital!!
Thankfully he decided to give us another week before he actually came (much to my embarrassment!).
God ended up naming him and everything turned out alright. I never did stick him in the trunk, thinking he was a sack of groceries. I was still able to shower and make dinner, clean house and even go do stuff. Yes, there were moments of getting to the end of my Wal-Mart trip and looking down at the front of my shirt to find a massive amount of snot and yogurt wiped across the front of it. But at least they were all accounted for.
Ok, so that was then. And this is now.
Number 4? Who cares! No big deal!! Can’t wait!!! Already thinking of Names!!!!
Where is he/she going to sleep? What does it matter? We have a closet, right?
You got rid of all of our baby stuff! So what!! It will all work out, not really worried about it!
You are 16 weeks and haven’t seen a doctor yet!! Well, I am taking vitamins…
What about school next year with a newborn??? School? Haven’t really thought about it!!
FOUR KIDS!!! What are you thinking!!! Well, apparently I’m not!
Ok, so you get the feel for where I am in life at the moment. One word – Clueless. Or am I?
This is where I need your help.
I came across this ‘funny’ in Reader’s Digest and I laughed out loud. Not really because it was so funny, but because it’s the perfect indication of where I am NOT!!
Ok, here it is:
“If you want to know what it’s like to have a fourth kid, just imagine you’re drowning and someone hands you a fourth kid.”
Should I be panicking? Or at least nervous? Is my oblivion going to leave me unprepared??
I don’t know. What do you think??