So you hurry and yell from the shower EAT SOMETHING! to the kids.
This was the beginning of my Sunday a few weeks back.
When we got to church I sat. I was trying hard to focus, to listen as the word was being read and expounded on. My mind felt tired and I was wrestling. Wrestling with the state of my heart. It would have been better to have had this wrestling session an hour or so before, but sometimes life (and alarms) don’t allow you that. So there I was on the pew asking God to search my heart. I was feeling a little ‘off’. Kinda like my blow dryer.
Hmm, maybe I just need to be reset…
So I began searching for that button.
A few weeks prior to that Sunday I had accepted a challenge. I was determined to complete it. I was excited about it and I could sense the change beginning.
Some of you may have heard about it. It was a challenge given to Ann Voskamp a few Christmas’ ago to make a list of the gifts God had already given her. She was to write them down – all the way to 1,000. Her book One Thousand Gifts explains her process and the way God used it to change her mind and heart.
Well I was ready for something new and challenging so I began to write things down. I couldn’t believe how exhilarating and liberating it was! It almost became an addiction – an addiction to being a joy seeker.
But after a few weeks the book had been mysteriously forgotten and several days passed before I remembered, Oh yeah! My gratitude book!
So sitting in church I pushed my reset button – by pulling out my gratitude book and counting my oh so many blessings…
Praising God in the kitchen
Being asked about Ukraine
The crook of his neck
Being encouraged and uplifted by a sermon of grace
Finding my reset button
My perspective had warped and I had so quickly lost sight of the joy that God gives in recognizing the blessings He has already given me. I receive the gift by recognizing it, verbalizing it, writing it down so that I can see it, tangible, as reality, ultimately giving thanks for it.
There is no magic in the book or the pen, but there is a new perspective that I am enjoying, when I choose to look through the lens of gratitude.
Right now it is work. Soon I hope it will become second nature, but for now I’ll just keep pushing that reset button.