My days have been so full this past week. I have felt a bit like Peter. When he had finally mustered up the faith to step out onto the water he looked at the waves… Even though Jesus was there with Him, close enough to reach out and save him, he still sunk. He let the circumstances overwhelm him and he sank.
My mom shared a really neat devotional with me the other day about that very passage by Oswald Chambers. I have let my mind mull over his words since. It is so appropriate. It speaks to where I am in life right now. I’d like to share it with you:
We step right out with recognition of God in some things, then self-consideration enters our lives and down we go. If you are truly recognizing your Lord, you have no business being concerned about how and where He engineers your circumstances. The things surrounding you are real, but when you look at them you are immediately overwhelmed, and even unable to recognize Jesus. Then comes His rebuke, “. . . why did you doubt?” (Matthew 14:31). Let your actual circumstances be what they may, but keep recognizing Jesus, maintaining complete reliance upon Him.
If you debate for even one second when God has spoken, it is all over for you. Never start to say, “Well, I wonder if He really did speak to me?” Be reckless immediately— totally unrestrained and willing to risk everything— by casting your all upon Him. You do not know when His voice will come to you, but whenever the realization of God comes, even in the faintest way imaginable, be determined to recklessly abandon yourself, surrendering everything to Him. It is only through abandonment of yourself and your circumstances that you will recognize Him. You will only recognize His voice more clearly through recklessness— being willing to risk your all.”
I have 10 days before we leave. Just 10 days to complete everything. And fit Christmas somewhere in there! But it’s ok. God is in charge of the details. He will lead us and we will follow…